Sunday, November 15, 2009

Detonate

Stuart stared into his bottle. If he looked into it at the right angle, he could see the tiny bubbles inside exploding...He remembered when he was little: His mother would fill the bathtub with shampoo and fill the tub with countless shiny domes. He would play in the bathtub and smash the bubbles with his tiny fists, detonating microscopic universes. He thought about that for awhile...and then he thought about thinking. He thought about memory, and how easily it can be forged. He thought about his own consciousness, and how it's the only real thing he has ever known...and then he thought about Audrey.

Smoke was hovering in front of him. He looked over to Audrey. She was curled into the shower slightly rocking, pausing only to suck on the end of the cigarette. He stared at her for some time...until he remembered the folder he brought home from work.

This singular thought snapped him out of his trance, and he was suddenly awake to reality. He sat his bottle down and walked into the living room and to his desk, picking up the folder.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Her systematic breathing


Stuart slowly puffed on his cigarette. Who was this woman? What is she? Where did she come from? He turned towards the table and grabbed his bottle of liquor. He took a few drinks off of it, and then watched her. She was completely frozen, except for her systematic breathing, and an occasional slow blink reflex. Her artificial eyes needed little lubrication. She exceptionally well built. Even for a transhuman (which she may or may not have been), her behavior was quite strange. Stuart's job was to investigate and destroy malfunctioned subjects, yet he had never quite seen a production like her. Her beauty stunned him and her demeanor was intriguing, but Stuart kept reserved, as always. He needed to examine her.

Take off your clothes.

Stuart put out his cigarette, stood up, and approached her. He stood next to her, looking down onto the top of her head.

I may not be human, but I still have morals.

She said this, still staring at the object.

He knelt down and took the object from her hand and placed it on the table.

I need to see your body.

She turned her eyes towards him and speculated. Then she stood up and began to remove her shirt. As she was doing this, he turned her around. She appeared to have no weapons, and posed no threat. As she was removing her bra, he noticed a marking on her back.

Stop, he commanded.

He crouched down to get level with the marking. It was a tattoo of a flower, the same as the one in her hair. He stood back up, lighting another cigarette. He then took a picture.



The smoke filled the dim-lit room. He blew smoke across her back while he stroked the marking. She shivered while he asked his question.

Do you know...anything...about yourself?

He was nearly whispering; his voice was fading away.

She grabbed his hand, which was still stroking, and turned around.

Do you have any music Stuart?

A few sirens rushed past the window and it began to rain. His eyes were closed tightly, then opened. The world was still here, he said this to himself. He pulled a remote out if his pocket and turned on some ambience. He made his way to his bottle, and then to the bathroom, a stream of smoke trailing behind him. On his way to his
destination, he knelt over and picked up her
shirt, which he then tossed over to her. She caught it without looking, and slowly placed it back on the ground. He stared into the mirror, washed his face, and hit his bottle on his head. He put the toilet lid down and sat. She made her way into the bathroom and stood in front of him, still half-dressed.

He removed his cigarette and placed it in her mouth.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Theory




The cat, a creature of epicureanism. It only does what it pleases. The one in the room ate incessantly, and when it was not eating it was cleaning itself, and when it was not cleaning itself it was sleeping. In no particular order. The cat does what it pleases. The cat only does what it pleases. They were in the apartment now.

So what is your name?

He thought about it, and then he said his name.

Well, I have come here to ask you an important question.

Then you must have already known my name then, didn't you?

She presented an object. He observed it. They made eye contact, and held it for a time.

Have you ever wanted to disappear?

In what context?

Reality.

To Stuart Spade, the world was an ever expanding dome. He believed, quite simply, that the places he had never been, did not exist, until he visited them. He was much an advocate of "seeing is believing", but, quite honestly, he really didn't even believe in that. He watched the news, like any other human, and still did not believe. He really thought his life was one large experiment, a simulation, an exercise. Perhaps being executed exclusively in his mind, run by some mainframe. He told this to no one, as these beliefs were...not commonly shared, and he confided in no one. He doesn't know why he believes this, as there is no one experience that can be attributed with giving rise to his theory. At times when his sense of reality is disintegrating, he closes his eyes, and thinks of a place where the only thing that exists is his mind. He goes here quite often, as it brings him peace (which is so valuable). He thinks about this as disappearing.

Who are you.

He posed this question quite seriously.

She stared at him, and then turned her gaze toward the object.

I see the world through the negative images that fade out of focus.

He said this in a strange manner.

I see the world through the flashing of the lights.

She said this as she was becoming more dream-like, Stuart looked at her quite seriously. He leaned forward. He embraced it: the belief that she might be some messenger, some one from the other side of the simulation he believed he was in.

I want to know what happens when my heart stops beating. I want to know what happens when I lose my mind, and everything I think I know goes away. I want to know...

I can show you Stuart.

She said this as her voice became quite soothing.

He looked at the object again. Reality was a strange place, indeed.

I think I'll need a cigarette.

So he lit one, and puffed on it a few puffs, and exhaled like some great giant, and the reward centers in his brain activated, and he began to think...

...and he began to think about reality.

He puffed some more, and, as he spoke, smoke billowed from the opening in his face.

What are you.

I'm here to serve you. I was built over many years, but I was built to come here, to you, and serve my purpose.

Which is?

To ask you as series of questions, and respond to you accordingly, as per was planned. However, the questions are to be asked at the correct intervals.

He took a long drag.

And then to serve you indefinitely.

Who sent you?

I cannot recall my origin.

Do you have an ID number? Or any sort of barcode identification? Are you registered...?

I cannot recall my origin.

A few more puffs.

She had not blinked in some time, he noticed. He brought his face close to hers. She was facing down, toward to object she was still presenting to him. He put his hand softly on her chin, and directed her face up toward his. He looked into her eyes...She blinked slowly while a short breath of hers rolled across his face. He leaned back, and finished his cigarette.

You have to believe me, she said. I'm the only one who can help you.


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Like the flower



He flushes the toilet. His personal whirlpool. He plops down on the couch; notices he didn't wash his hands. Door bell rings.

Who are you?

I'm Audrey.

Audrey who.

Audrey Petunia, like the flower.

Is it a pretty flower?

She took the flower that was placed in her hair and examined it, making sure her response was accurate, and only to give the response after she had observed the subject and drawn her conclusion.

Not really.

They stared at each other...for a very long passage of time, through the crack in the door. Long relative to the norm. She was quite beautiful. Beautiful relative to the norm. Her eyes glowed a strange green, and then blue, and then grey. She probably wasn't human, but he was lonely these days. Lonely relative to the norm.

Can I come in?

He was opposed to having company, in any circumstance.

I don't know you.

But I seem harmless yes?

What do you want?

I want to come in.

My place is a mess.

I don't mind...really. Everywhere is dirty these days.

Her manner and beauty intrigued him. So he unchained the door and invited her in...studying her as she walked past him...

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Choking Cats




I feel like shit. I haven't slept in days. My eyes move slower than I can see. I feel them drifting shut. I begin to feel the administering of that familiar feeling of being shuttled off into darkness.

I believe it's called sleeping.

The door to my office opens, and it's my boss. A manilla folder crashes into my desk like a ten kilometer asteroid into the Yucatan.

My boss was a real piece of shit. The kind of dickhead who liked to choke cats. I wanted to wipe my ass with his face.

"Get to work Spade. I don't have time for your shit. And no smoking in the building!"

The door slams with enough force to crush 6 million jews (author's apologies, first thing that came to mind).

I unwind the rubber band. Then I rewind it. I'll worry about this tomorrow.

I enter my apartment. I throw the keys down, open the bathroom door.

I dock with the toilet like something out of 2001. A bunch of little ones come out first, fries, then the big one, hamburger.

Friday, August 29, 2008

"Wish You Were Here" : 2 April 2096 : New Chicago, United American Republics

The window slowly became more transparent, gradually letting in the sunlight to wake me up.

It was 8:45AM.

My cat hopped onto the bed. She was about 12, a brown tone, with black ears, paws, and tail. It meowed in my face. 

"Meow?" I questioned.

It answered with another noise. 

"Fine." I responded as I rose from my bed.

I approached the food bowl as the window achieved 100% opacity.

New Chicago came to life below me. I was on the 123rd floor. I had a great view, like something off of a postcard.

There was a trail of smoke visible from downtown. The bombings were becoming more and more common. Fucking psychopaths.

I felt like getting some coffee. I got dressed and headed for the elevator. 

There was a cute young woman in the elevator with me: chin length black hair, cute face. She was carrying a satchel.

"Hello." I said.

She stood in silence, the bitch.

I finally made it to the ground floor. She followed me what seemed like forever. She walked into the coffee shop and went to some back doors behind the counter.

About 7 minutes later she came back out. And about 2 minutes after that, the little coffee shop on the corner of South Rachel and 47th erupted into a massive fireball. I had a window seat. The blast blew me out of the front window and onto the street. My ears rang and my leg was on fire. I had a 2 inch long piece of glass jutting out of my left shoulder. Looking at my injuries and shouting a few expletives was all I remembered before I passed out. 

It was 9:40AM; I guess I'm not getting coffee today.

I woke up about 5 hours later in a hospital bed.

I passed out again. 

About a month later I would see her again.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

"What's the deal?" : 27 March 2096 : Mexican Federation

A journalist was running around with a black object.  He aimed it at the horizon; the transports' lights glowed ominously in the distance. He had blood on his vest.

"Are you damaged?" I asked him sounding worried - I wasn't.

He was too focused on getting his shot for the nightly news.

An infantryman with large antennas poking out of his back jogged over to me.

"Sir, I have orders from High Command for you." he shouted to me.

"You know, you're standing right next to me; you don't have to yell." I advised him.

"Yessir!" he screamed back.

"Just give me the update!" I shouted back impatiently.

I put the datacard into my oplink's external port.

The UAR Armed Forces seal was displayed by the nano-machines in my eye while the audio was played through my audial nano-machines.

"Lt. Bonaparte, you are to return to Firebase Bravo for your debriefing. We will contact you again." the playback ordered me.

We'll that was short.